Short update post incoming.
I’m going to do NaNoWriMo this year. Don’t ask me why I’m blogging instead of novelizing right now, because I don’t have the answers. My goal is to do 2000 words a day – that should give me about five days where I don’t *have* to write, which helps with work and school and life and things. I’ve got a lot going on at the moment, but I really need to do something about my supposed future goals (for. once.).
I really don’t want to fail and I really want to have finished a fucking first draft this time next month. I’ve been “planning” and “organizing” the same story for like, two years. It’s time to write. It has like five characters, it doesn’t even need all that much exposition or description or whatever. And all that can be added or removed or rewritten or whatever later.
I’ve talked before about how fear of failure prevents my accomplishments. Yeah, I’m really tired of that.
So like, if you’ve gotta push me, please do. Call me names if you have to. Whatever.
aside: I’ve just started a psychology course towards my degree. I promise not to turn into one of those psychology students self-diagnosing everything. But, let’s be real, look at my blog. That’s all I do. The thing is, I think psychology is legit interesting and kinda cool, but I thought the same thing about science fiction and I dropped that class, so… really, Jacob, really.
I just need to meditate more and have a mantra going. Something like… positive thoughts only. I’ll workshop this and get back 😅